Alone & stronger.

I’ll make it through the rainy days
I’ll be the one who stands here longer than the rest
When my landscape changes, rearranges
I’ll be stronger than I’ve ever been
No more stillness, more sunlight,
Everything’s gonna be alright

I know that there’s gonna be a change
Better find your way out of your fear
If you wanna come with me
Then that’s the way it’s gotta be
I’m all alone and finally
I’m getting stronger
You’ll come to see
Just what I can be
I’m getting stronger

Sometimes I feel so down and out
Like emotion that’s been captured in a maze
I had my ups and downs
Trials and tribulations,
I overcome it day by day,
Feeling good and almost powerful
A new me, that’s what I’m looking for

[bridge]
[chorus]

I didn’t know what I had to do
I just knew I was alone
People around me
But they didn’t care
So I searched into my soul
I’m not the type of girl that will let them see her cry
It’s not my style
I get by
See I’m gonna do this for me

Sometimes lyrics hits you so hard, because you relate so much. This week.. well, since last Thursday.. has been really stormy to me, and I'm wondering if it's without a reason or with them all together. I'm worried about my sis, about my bro, about myself, about people I love, about people I know. I think about the past, then I forward to the future, then I get hit by the present. I think of bad things, then I get frustrated at someone/something, then I get mad at myself, then I get sad because of others, then I get sad because I got sad, then I try cheering up with a happy song, then I can't help it and find a song to relate to and then I cry, then I know why the screen is such a good friend: you can hide your feelings. Then I cheer up with someone saying some silly thing, then I get sad when I try to figure out what's wrong... etc etc, don't need to go on, you can see I'm confused.

Argh, all I know is that I need to get away from this. And most of the times seems I'm better when I think on my own, so I just wanna run away from everyone.

Who will listen to my heart? Or at least try.